Although I decided to focus on my blog rather than social media I’m still getting sucked into Twitter and Facebook. I post links to my writing there because otherwise few people would see what I write. I then become too interested in whether or not people have clicked “like” on what I have written. I then feel a subtle pressure to write differently, or just share pictures of Alby, to get more response. To get more likes. I start to worry if people “like” me!
But, as I’ve always said, my blog posts are mostly memos to self. They are for me to react to the world around me and to see those reactions placed before me for inspection. Yes inspection by others but mostly by me. Being concerned about whether or not people like what I have written affects how I write.
I guess this process mirrors our struggles to identify our true selves in the rest of our lives. The draw of relationship becomes pressure to conform.
Can we know ourselves without relationship? Can we truly be ourselves if it becomes too important?